She broke into a wide smile, unable to wipe it from her face. Of course she had been nervous about telling Chuck the news of her pregnancy. She had absolutely no idea how he would react and although she was worried seeing his face pale and him go speechless, she now realized his real fear. It wasn’t that he didn’t want a child, it was that he didn’t want to loose her. “Oh, no, no, you’re not getting off that easy, Bass,” she said, raising an eyebrow. She grabbed his hand and pulled it up, glancing it over. “Should we practice?” Blair asked, tightening her grip on his hand before quickly softening it, running her thumb over his knuckles. She pressed her lips together when he began shaking his head at the options and frowned. It was reasonable for him to want her to be completely pain-free and safe but something inside her told her she wanted a natural birth. To bear through the pain and truly experience it. Plus, she had been through worse, right? She knew he wouldn’t be happy with that, though, especially with the fears consuming his mind. She opened her mouth, ready to defend what she wanted to do before hesitating. “We’ll talk more about it. Research and look into it,” she said, nodding. “I just… really feel that a natural birth would be best,” she mumbled, looking down at their hands before back at him. Her lips curled into a soft smile at his words, blushing as he kissed the back of her hand. “I could never give up on you, Chuck,” she said quietly, leaning in to kiss him deeply. “No matter how many times I wanted to,” she mumbled against his lips, breaking into a smirk as she pulled away, swinging their hands lightly.
Blair looked up, her eyes growing wide. She was pregnant, there was no way they could get married right now, despite how much she ached to. It simply wasn’t possible. By the time everything was planned, she would be at least six months pregnant and then what? She couldn’t walk down the aisle like that. But the last thing Blair wanted was for their child to be born before they were married. “I’m pregnant, Chuck, I can’t walk down the aisle looking like a blimp,” she mumbled, shaking her head. She remained in complete shock, unable to say anything as he wiped the tears from under her eyes. “Every trembling bone in my tired and scared body wants to marry you,” she said, her voice shaky. She laced her fingers with his, kissing him passionately. Next week. Blair’s eyes widened as he pulled away, looking at him in disbelief. “Are you insane?” She asked, tilting her head. There was far too much to get done, he couldn’t be serious. When he pointed, Blair turned, her expression immediately softening seeing the Belvedere Castle. Her heart was racing at a rapid beat and as much as Blair had always wanted the fairytale wedding that took months of planning in advance, more than anything she just wanted to be his wife. She wanted to be Mrs. Bass, enough to blind her judgement. Years ago when he first proposed they had mentioned they wanted to be married there, and now it was all finally happening. Turning back to Chuck, her lips pressed together in a smile as she leaned her forehead against his, nodding slowly as more tears surfaced. “Yes,” she said, hearing a crack in her voice. “I’ll marry you,” she whispered before capturing his lips in a kiss.
As worried and as scared as Chuck was, he wasn’t going to let those fears ruin his happiness. He was finally going to get to be the man he always wanted his own father to be for him. He could finally prove to everyone, to Blair and especially to himself, that he was truly a good person. Of course, there were still plenty of people who had their doubts about Chuck, but now, in being a father and a husband, he’d prove them all wrong and he’d prove himself wrong, considering just a few years ago, he never thought he’d be capable of any of this. But here he was, engaged to the love of his life who was carrying his child. Chuck shook his head and rolled his eyes playfully when she squeezed his hand, placing his hand on top of hers. “I’m a man, I think I’ll be able to handle it.” he said and nodded, pursing his lips. “But a natural birth is dangerous. I rather you take the safer route, just so everything goes smoothly, but we have time to talk about it.” he said and sighed, shrugging his shoulders. “And I’ll never be able to thank you enough for that.” he said and smiled, shaking his head lightly.
"You don’t have to walk down the aisle looking like a blimp." Chuck said and chuckled lightly, shaking his head. "But, even if that was what had to happen, you’d still be as beautiful as you are right now." he said, lifting her chin slightly. Chuck cupped her face and continued to run her thumbs under her eyes and he nodded at her words. "And I want to marry you, with every fiber of my being. I don’t want anything getting in the way of us anymore." he said and shook his head, knowing that this was finally it. Chuck and Blair would finally get that happily ever after they’ve been working so hard towards to the point where it felt like it’d never come. But it did, and their time was now. "Maybe a little, but as insane as it is, I don’t want to wait another second." he said and shook his head, as he tried to imagine what was running through her head right now. When she leaned her forehead against his, he looked at her hopefully, waiting to hear her answer. Yes, I’ll marry you. Immediately, her words made Chuck break out into a wide smile as she pressed her lips against his. He laughed against her lips as his arms wrapped around her waist, hugging her close to him. “We’re getting married.” he mumbled against her lips, letting out another happy laugh before picking her up and spinning her around. Once he put her down and broke the kiss, he kept his forehead against hers. “I love you so much Blair, and I can’t wait to love our baby just as much as I love you.” he said and smiled widely, once again wiping underneath her eyes.
She pressed her lips together in a tight line, feeling her chest tighten. She could see the fear in his eyes, but she was more than relieved to know it wasn’t the fact that she was pregnant that he was upset about. More so about what could happen to her now that she was pregnant. She knew that this had always been a fear of Chuck’s, because if they ever lost each other, the two would be desperately lost without each other. For the past week, Blair didn’t know how to go on without him, under the impression that he had been gone forever. They used to fear their feelings of being too dependent on each other, but Blair didn’t care about that anymore. As much as she wanted to be a independent and respectable woman, she knew that she wouldn’t be Blair Waldorf without him. After everything they had been through, Blair didn’t care if he made her weak and vulnerable. He made her the happiest she’s ever been, and nothing could compare to that. “Oh, I will break your hand,” she mumbled, laughing quietly as she reached down to lace her fingers with his, giving his hand a gentle squeeze. “Your entire wrist too if you’re lucky,” she said, bringing her free hand up to cup his face. Blair ran her thumb across his bottom lip, pulling it up into a real smile. “We do have a lot to discuss, like whether I want a natural birth, a drugged one, a home one,” she said, raising her eyebrow as she rambled, knowing Chuck would probably want her to take the easy way out. “Don’t doubt yourself,” she said quietly, placing his hand on top of her stomach. Blair smiled softly at his words and glanced down, letting out a small sigh. “I just hope that won’t be my downfall,” she said, shaking her head.
“Well, I..,” she muttered, unsure of what to say. They had been engaged for a while now, and though Blair should have been expecting this, she still couldn’t wrap her head around it. She sighed when he said they had nothing in their way anymore, knowing that by the time she actually planned everything for their wedding, it would be too late and she would already be showing, in which case they would have to wait until she gave birth. “I know that we have everything we’ve set out to accomplish but..,” she said, her eyebrows furrowing. She broke into a wide smile when he wrapped his arm around her waist and pulled her in, her fingers grabbing onto his shirt. Blair deepened the kiss, letting out a heavy breath when he broke it. Marry me. She couldn’t help the tears that surfaced in her eyes hearing those words, the ones that she had been dying to hear since he first proposed, and now they could finally be together. She nodded, unable to wipe the smile from her face or the tears rolling down her cheeks. Blair placed her hand on top of his, leaning in to kiss him again. “Nine months,” she said quietly, glancing down at her engagement ring. As much as she hated the idea of their child being born out of wedlock, Blair knew she couldn’t get married in a few months when she was fully pregnant.
"Break my whole arm for all I care, whatever makes you feel better." he said and chuckled lightly. "If that’ll be the case, I can be in the hospital bed right next to you, not that I won’t sneak into yours, of course." he said and smirked. When Blair said they had to discuss what kind of birth she wanted, Chuck immediately shook his head. "In the hospital, more drugged than I am on Lost Weekends." he said and nodded. Chuck wanted Blair to have the safest delivery possible and knew that the only way that could be achieved was if it was in the hospital. A natural birth only meant more pain ad a home birth sounded like a recipe for disaster. All he wanted was a smooth delivery where both Blair and the baby turning out okay, his biggest fear being the opposite of what he wanted. "If you gave up on people we wouldn’t be standing here right now." he said and smiled, lacing both of his hands with hers and left a kiss on the back of one of them. Chuck knew Blair would never realize how much it truly meant to him that she never gave up on him when everyone else in the world did and she was truly the only one who stuck through everything with him. And looking back at everything he’s been through- the struggles, the hardships, the achievements the losses- he knew he couldn’t get through any of that without her.
"There’s no buts anymore, Blair!" he said, shaking his head as he cupped her face. "We finally can spend the rest of our lives together without all the ‘what ifs?’ hanging over our heads. We can be happy without anything ever getting in our way again." he said, a laugh escaping from his throat, simply because he couldn’t believe that after everything, absolutely nothing could get in their way again for as long as they lived. They truly were inevitable. Chuck smiled at her when she broke the kiss and bought his hands to cup her face and wipe underneath her eyes with his thumbs. His eyes widened when she said nine months and he immediately shook his head, pulling her in for another kiss. "Next week." he mumbled, knowing the idea was absolutely crazy. As he pulled away, his eyes opened to see the view behind her. It was the Belvedere Castle. The place Chuck took Blair on Valentines Day years ago and that was the first night he truly realized that he was madly in love with her. "Next week, right there." he said, pointing to the castle, waiting to see Blair’s reaction.
Blair nodded slowly, unable to stop the soft smile that grew on her face as he pulled her into him closer. She rested her hands on his chest, toying with the top button of his shirt before looking up at him to meet his eyes. “You bet your well-rounded ass you’re not going anywhere,” she mumbled, breaking into a smirk. Even though the past week had be absolute pain and torture, it would be the last time she ever felt like that again. They would be able to be together for the rest of their lives with no obstacles, the only problems being what to name their child. She had never seen him smile like that, just at the thought of them being together. But just as quickly as that smile showed up on his face, it disappeared. Blair didn’t know how he was going to react to her pregnancy, but she didn’t think it would be like this. Even if they were too young and this happened before they could plan it, she knew they were ready. They were two people who loved each other entirely and would never separate, and they would pour all that love to this baby to give it a home where it could grow up and be happy. A real family who conversed at the dinner table and stood together as an entire unit. They were only 22 years old, but they were already settled into their careers. The only things that were missing were wedding bands and marriage certificates. He was supposed to be as excited as she was, and Blair was heartbroken at the fact that this might not be what he wanted. She pressed her lips together to keep from frowning when he stepped closer, glancing around the park to avoid his eyes until he spoke. Right as she was about to protest his words, Chuck admitted to being scared, making her fall silent. “Nothing is going to happen to me,” she whispered, shaking her head as she locked her fingers with his. “I know you’re scared because of what happened to your mother, but you’re going to be right there next to me, pushing me and making it all worth it. I won’t give up. I’ll be healthy and our baby will be healthy,” she said and nodded, understanding his fear. Blair broke into a wide smile when he did, bringing one hand up to cup the side of his face. “You’re going to be the best father,” she said quietly, bringing her hand back down to his. Blair watched as he pulled out a small wrapped box and raised an eyebrow at him.
One word, three letters.
Confusion spread across her face at his words before she looked back down at the box, cautiously taking it. Blair unwrapped the paper, dropping it to her side before slowly opening the box, seeing two perfect wedding bands. Her mouth dropped as she stared down at them, unsure of what this meant. They were already engaged, but did this mean he wanted to go to the next step?
Blair shook her head slowly, taking his hand and putting the box back in it, clasping her hand over his. “I don’t want you doing this because I’m pregnant,” she mumbled, looking up at him with wide eyes. “We had a plan, and I know this wasn’t apart of it, but we wanted to take our time, do things right. We can still do that, but I don’t want you resenting me in ten years because I took away the time you had to yourself. Don’t do it because it’s morally right to,” she said, swallowing the lump forming in her throat.
Chuck knew that Blair’s pregnancy was nothing but a blessing, but he couldn’t help the fears he was having. Anything could go wrong and Chuck had no idea how he’d go on with his life without Blair. He didn’t care if he was too dependent on her, nor did he care that the thought of not living with her in his life made him not want to live at all. All he cared about was spending the rest of his life with her, no matter what the personal costs may be. Everything they’ve been through- the love, the lust, the hate, the fights, the good times and the bad-made Chuck realize that his only happiness could be with Blair, no matter what was going on between them. He could never even imagine waking up to a face that wasn’t Blair’s every morning. He couldn’t imagine spending his lazy days just sitting at home with the dogs in their laps with someone that wasn’t Blair. He couldn’t picture taking any other girl out for a romantic dinner and looking at her all dressed up the way he did with Blair and that’s what scared him. It scared him that if she was gone, no one could ever make him feel what she did, which is why to him, Blair Waldorf was the most powerful woman he’s ever known. When Blair spoke and said that nothing was going to happen to her, Chuck looked down, pressing his lips together, knowing that anything was possible. “And you can break my hand for all I care, I just want you to be okay.” he said and nodded, flashing her a weak smile. His smile widened when she said he would be the best father, knowing that was always a personal goal of his ever since his father passed away. “I’ll try to be.” he said and nodded. “But I already know you’re going to be an amazing mother, you never give up on people, even when they deserve it.” he said and gave her hands a squeeze.
"I planned on doing this before I found out you were pregnant, why do you think I got the rings?" he said and shook his head. "Our plan is done though, we’ve both succeeded everything we’ve wanted to succeed and there’s finally nothing in our way anymore." he said, letting out a sigh as he put the rings back in his jacket pocket. "Why would we waste anymore time? Things are right and they’ll always be right as long as we’re together, we’ve waited too long for this. It’s our time, Blair." he said and nodded, breaking into a wide smile. Wrapping his arm around her waist, he pulled her into him and kissed her deeply, holding her close to him as he reached down to grab one of her hands, bringing it up to his chest. "Marry me." he said quietly as he broke the kiss, leaning his forehead against hers, putting one hand on her stomach, not being able to fight the smile growing on his face.
“I’m serious,” she said, raising an eyebrow at him. “Even if you just want to go down the block to the store, I’m coming with you,” Blair mumbled, kissing him softly. His reaction to her pregnancy wasn’t what Blair had expected at all. She knew he would be shocked, even she was. Of course they planned to have a family, but not this soon. They weren’t even married yet, and now she was pregnant? She always had a plan, and this definitely wasn’t part of it, but it wasn’t as if she was upset about it. If anything, she took it as a blessing, and it upset her that Chuck didn’t. She watched as he sat on the couch, completely speechless in the worst way. He looked like he was about to be sick, and Blair couldn’t tell what was causing him to act this way. Did he feel as though he wasn’t ready? Did he even want this for himself? Chuck Bass had never planned for himself to have a girlfriend, even less a fiance and child. Maybe it was too much for him to process, but Blair couldn’t shake the feeling that this wasn’t what he wanted anymore. That he wasn’t meant for this life, and he couldn’t take care of someone else. She knew he was capable of it, Chuck would be the best dad anyone could ask for, simply because he would look after his family and be everything Bart couldn’t be. What if he didn’t want any of this? A wife, or a child. What if one day he just left? The thought left a hollow feeling in Blair’s stomach and she didn’t know what to say. She looked up as he stood and said nothing was wrong, only making her feel worse. Blair bowed her head and frowned before standing and walked towards the coat rack, grabbing her coat and pressed the button for the elevator. When it arrived, Blair stepped in, waiting for Chuck and leaned against the wall until they reached the lobby. Quickly, she walked outside, remaining a few steps in front of him, ignoring the constant fear that when she turned around, he wouldn’t be there. Blair kept walking until she reached the entrance to the park, and kept going from there. She didn’t know what to say to him and it hurt that he had nothing else to say. She didn’t know whether he was full of fear or full of regret, but either way, it killed her. Finally, she came to a stop and turned to face him, pressing her lips together as she thought. “None of this is what you ever wanted,” Blair said quietly, meeting his eyes. “Chuck and Blair holding hands, Chuck and Blair going to the movies. Chuck and Blair having a baby. Let’s face it, it’s too boring for you, isn’t it?” She asked, tears surfacing.
Chuck laughed lightly when she said she wasn’t allowing him to go anywhere alone, leaning in when she kissed him softly. He immediately deepened it, resting his hands on the small of her back as he pulled her closer towards himself. “I’m not going anywhere, Blair.” he said, more than anything, trying to reassure her. “I told you that this was the end of our obstacles and I promised you that and now we can be happy for the rest of our lives together.” he said and nodded, breaking out into a wide smile, the thought alone making Chuck so happy that he could die. Of course, more than anything Chuck wanted a family, something he never had. But he felt like it was too early for them. They weren’t even married yet and before starting a family, Chuck wanted to enjoy the time of peacefulness he and Blair could now share now that everything was out of the way. When the elevator doors opened, Chuck stepped in after Blair, leaning on the opposite side of the elevator, facing away from her. He watched as she walked in front of him, it being obvious that she wasn’t happy with his reaction. All in all, Chuck was just scared, but he knew that no matter what his fears were, he had to suck it up. He was going to be a father and Blair needed him now more than ever. Chuck’s eyes widened slightly when Blair turned around and began speaking, stepping closer to her at her words. “This is everything I’ve ever wanted, Blair.” he said and nodded. Chuck shook his head at her, grabbing her hands in his. “Blair, you and I could never be boring.” he said, running his fingers over the engagement ring on her finger. “I’m just…scared.” he said, pressing his lips together, looking down. “The thought of anything happening to you…” he said, cutting himself off as he shook his head. “But we’re going to be a family.” Chuck said, breaking out into a smile, giving her hands a squeeze. “And I’m going to love our baby as much as I love you.” he said and nodded. He reached into his coat pocket and pulled out the wrapped box that contained their two wedding bands and handed it to her. “One word, three letters.” he said.
“I could say the same. When I was able to think, that is,” she said quietly, lacing her fingers with his. “But you’re here now, that’s all that matters,” she said, brushing her fingers across his cheek bone. He would always be here, and they would always have that connection. They would finally be able to start a family together and Blair couldn’t wait for him to find out she was pregnant, although a part of her was scared. She knew Chuck would be a wonderful father, but what if he wasn’t ready for that? What if that wasn’t what he wanted? He never wanted any of this for himself, and now his world was completely upside down. She nodded, watching as he went towards his stockings. He could open up his other gifts later, besides they were just dress shirts, cuff links, ties and shoes. What else was there to get the man who had it all? Well, everything other than a family. As he reached into his stocking, the nervous pit in Blair’s stomach grew. But she knew that over all, Chuck was ready for this. He would be protective and there for his family. He was everything his own father wasn’t, and that was what would make him someone for his kids to look up to. Blair held her hand over her mouth anxiously, not tearing her eyes away from him as he pulled out the test to his reaction. His eyes widened and he fell silent, although Blair couldn’t tell whether that was a good or bad kind of shock. “Chuck?” She asked softly, scooting towards the end of her seat. When he broke into a wide smile, Blair mimicked it, breaking into a laughter as he ran to her and spun her around. “We’re having a baby,” she repeated against his lips, smiling widely. She wrapped her arms around his neck, deepening the kiss until she felt him freeze. Her heart dropped to her stomach as he pulled away, unsure of what this meant. Blair walked towards him and knelt down in front of him, taking her hand. “What is it?” She asked, her smile faltering.
"And I’m never leaving you again." Chuck said and nodded, giving her hands a squeeze as she laced their fingers together. As Chuck processed the fact that Blair was actually pregnant, as much as he wanted to be happy and celebrate this with her, he couldn’t. Chuck was actually petrified. He didn’t want what happened to his mother to happen to Blair. How would he live with himself? How would he raise a child on his own without Blair by his side? Of course, he’d never blame his child like Bart blamed Chuck for his mother’s death, but Chuck knew he wouldn’t have the strength in him to do it all on his own. He didn’t even know if he was capable of being a father. Just a few years ago, Chuck only cared about himself. Chuck never wanted a kid, let alone a girlfriend or even a wife. But now, he was being thrown into this unexpectedly. He didn’t know how to be a father, he didn’t know how to be a parent, and he didn’t even know if he’d be able to be a good husband. Chuck would not only be responsible for himself and taking care of Blair, but he’d have to take care of and actually raise another human being from scratch. A human being who would depend on him for his or her every need and want, a human being who would look up to him, a human being who’s entire life would be dependent on him. All these thoughts running through Chuck’s head were making him feel sick, dizzy even. He closed his eyes and put his hand over his mouth, shaking his head when Blair grabbed his hand and asked him what was wrong. "Nothing." he mumbled, standing up and brushed himself off. He walked over to the coat rack and grabbed his coat, quickly putting it on himself. "Let’s go for a walk." he mumbled, leaning against the wall, his back facing her as he looked down, not being able to clear his head, but he knew he needed air, he needed to calm down and breathe.
She looked up to meet his eyes when he held her face and placed her hand on top of his, running her thumb over his knuckles. Going without him had been pure torture, and for a week Blair had gone without his good morning and goodnight kisses. His random kisses through out the day in which they usually winded up dropping whatever they were doing just so they wouldn’t have to stop. That pull they had on one another where they just couldn’t keep their hands off of each other, and Blair knew she would never take her dainty little fingers off of him again. “You shouldn’t have gone a second without thinking of me,” she said, raising an eyebrow. She smiled lightly and nodded, leaning her forehead against his. He was back now and even though she absolutely hated him for putting her through that, she didn’t want to dwell on it. Like Chuck said, nothing could ever bring them apart now. They would be able to have the rest of their lives together, and even though it didn’t seem like enough to Blair, she planned on relishing every moment. “A month? You’re not getting off that easy, Bass. You’re not leaving this house for the rest of your life,” she said, leaning in to kiss him before breaking into a smile against his lips and pulled away. Blair watched as he opened up the book, hoping he wouldn’t find it too corny. She kneeled down next to him, rubbing his shoulders and rested her head on his, smiling widely. “Well, it’s a two part gift,” she said, glancing over at him. Blair looked towards his stocking, waiting for him to grab it.
"Well whatever measure of time you want to use doesn’t matter, you were on my mind no matter what." Chuck said and nodded, leaning his forehead against hers. After this terrible week, Chuck knew that even though it was awful, it was worth it because now, they had their whole lives ahead of them without anything to ever stand in their way again. They could be happy, they could finally get married and truly start their lives together. He had a lot to make up for and he knew he’d never be able to because he couldn’t imagine going an entire week with thinking that Blair was gone without any chance of every getting her back again. He probably would have ended up dying from a broken heart. Chuck’s life used to be empty and meaningless but ever since Blair came into it, it was as if he finally had a purpose. He finally had someone who loved him unconditionally and whom he loved as well and that was something he’d never take advantage of. "And that sounds perfectly fine to me." he said and chuckled against her lips when she said he wasn’t leaving the house for the rest of his life. "A two part gift?" Chuck said, raising a brow as he looked towards the stockings when she nodded her head towards it. Looking at her with an even more confused expression, Chuck slowly made his way over to the stocking, taking it off of the wall. He reached inside and felt something plastic inside. He pulled it out and looked down at it, his eyes widened in shock. It was a positive pregnancy test. "Oh my God." Chuck muttered to himself, looking down at it in shock. Chuck couldn’t believe that right at this moment, Blair was carrying their first child, conceived completely out of their love for each other. Chuck would finally have the family he always wanted. He’d be a father that his child could look up to instead of constantly fear and him and Blair would be one of the few good parents on the Upper East Side who put their kids before anything. "We’re having a baby." he mumbled to himself, a wide smile growing on his lips as he put the pregnancy test down on the table, running over to Blair as he picked her up and spun her around. "We’re having a baby!" he said more excitedly, putting her down and kissed her passionately. But then Chuck realized what happened to his mother when he was born. His mother died in child birth and like his mother, Blair was small. What if her body, wouldn’t be able to handle it? What if he lost her? Chuck froze against her lips, slowly backing up and sunk into the couch his eyes wide as he slowly shook his head, not daring to look up at Blair.
“You could have sent someone to tell me, you could have done something. The past week was..,” she stopped, shaking her head slowly. “I really thought you were d-,” she mumbled, unable to even finish the sentence. But Blair didn’t want to get into any of that now. She didn’t want to be mad at him or upset with him. It was Christmas, and going a week thinking he was really gone made her appreciate him enough to never take him for granted again. She didn’t want to waste a single second of their time together, which would officially begin now that they had no obstacles in their way. With Waldorf Designs running smoothly and Bass Industries on top, they had finally accomplished their personal goals. Blair just wondered if, when, and how they would finally come together, as a husband and wife. Blair broke into a soft smile at his words, running her hand down his face. She had the rest of her life with him, and even he was happy about her giving him hell for the rest of his. “And to make up for the past week,” she said quietly, leaning her forehead against his. And Blair didn’t mean sex this time when she said to make up for lost time. She meant the stolen moments they were supposed to share waking up to each other and going to bed next to each other, cuddling on the couch next to the fireplace and going for walks through the park. The little things. Blair nodded, keeping her hand in his and crawled out on his side of the bed, quickly tucking herself under his arm, leaning into his side, knowing there was no chance she would ever leave it. Sliding her feet into a pair of slippers, she led him out of their room and down the stairs, her eyes widening at the tree lit up with presents underneath, which Dorota must have put out. She was so anxious for him to find out the news, to see the positive pregnancy test, but quickly her nerves kicked in. To calm herself, she leaned in to kiss him softly and slowly before pulling away. “Pick something to open,” she said, resting her chin on his shoulder, nudging him towards the wrapped baby book of their first Christmas.
"I know, Blair." Chuck said quietly, holding her face when she shook his head. "You don’t think it killed me that I couldn’t tell you that I was alright? I didn’t go a day without thinking about you. But I don’t want us worrying about the time we lost. I’m so sorry I had to do that to you, but now we’ll never loose each other again." he said and smiled lightly, nodding to reassure her. Finally, Chuck could be the man he wanted to be with Blair. He could be the man that, unlike his father, would never become so consumed with work that he forgot about what really mattered, he’d be the man that loved his family unconditionally, the man that would be there for everything and never miss anything important because he was away on business. He’d be the man that never blamed the girl for his mistakes, and that’s exactly who he wanted to be with her. "To make up for the past week I’m not leaving the house for a month. I’m staying right here with you because that’s the only place in the world I ever want to be." he said and smiled, leaning in to kiss her softly. Chuck knew that he had a lot to make up for. He felt terrible that for a week, she had to go to bed alone, without his arm around her, without a good night kiss. She had to wake up to a cold bedside instead of him, anxiously pulling her back into his side, just so they could have a few more minutes in bed together. Finally, they’d never have to miss out on any of those little moments ever again. When Blair tucked herself under his arm and slipped into her slippers, Chuck left a kiss on her shoulder, standing up with her as he followed her downstairs. He smiled lightly at the sight of the tree and the presents, finding it a bit strange since it was something he’s never experienced before, but he couldn’t wait. He was more than excited than to see Blair’s eyes light up when she opens her new Tiffany’s diamond earrings, or her Cartier bracelet, her Louboutins, and even her Moschino dress. But above all those little things, he could wait for her to unwrap the tiny box that was secured in his pocket that contained two Harry Winston wedding bands, the wedding bands they’d slide on each other’s finger soon. When Blair nudged him towards a box, he smiled at her before making his way over to it. He sat down next to it on the floor and opened it, his eyes widening at what he saw. Blair had made him a baby book of their first Christmas together, which was really the first year Chuck ever celebrated Christmas in his entire life. He smiled as he flipped through the pages, seeing the pictures of them burning cookies in the kitchen, Chuck hanging up her actual stockings and them kissing under the mistletoe. It was something that Chuck would cherish forever. "I love it." he said quietly and nodded as he closed the book, looking down at it, before he looked up at her, leaning in to give her a kiss. "Thank you." he said against her lips, looking back down at the book with a soft smile.
Her breathing was growing shakier as Blair remained frozen in shock. Her fingers trembled lightly over his features, unable to believe it. He was alive, he was here right before her, back for Christmas just like he promised. Her child would have a father and she would have a husband; they would have a family. But that didn’t stop Blair’s heart from racing. She shook her head slowly, feeling her throat close up. She wasn’t able to say anything. Not how much she missed him or how much she loved him, how much she felt like dying herself. When he grabbed her hand off his face, she squeezed his tightly, it being the only thing she could do at the moment. She met his eyes, doing her absolute best to keep herself together for the sake of the moment, but it was nearly impossible. It was as if a sudden light had shone in her life and all the darkness had gone away. She was furious with him for making her believe he had been dead the past week, but she had missed him more than anything and she wasn’t going to spend the entire morning being mad at him, it was Christmas after all. She pressed her lips together, holding back tears but when he pulled her closer to him, Blair couldn’t take it anymore. She buried her face in his chest and grabbed onto the fabric of his shirt, completely breaking down. Letting out everything she had been holding in for so long and now every new feeling she had. Happiness. Her hormones had been raging since she got pregnant, which Chuck still needed to find out. She smiled softly as he rubbed her back, knowing that this was the end of all of their obstacles. They could finally be together, and be happy. Nothing hanging over their heads and nothing to get in the way of them. “I’m never letting you out of my sight again,” she finally got out, holding onto him tightly as he kissed her. Blair brought her hands to his face, holding him to her. “Merry Christmas,” she mumbled, before hitting him hard in the arm. “How could you do that to me? You couldn’t call or text or send me a note from a pidgin?” She cried, kissing him again. “I’m sorry, I don’t want to ruin this day. But tomorrow you are getting hell,” she muttered. All Blair really wanted to do was tell him she was pregnant, especially after a week of there being an option of him never being a father. She sat up, wiping under her eyes with one hand, the other in his. Blair honestly didn’t know if she would ever be able to let go of him again. “You’re alive,” she whispered, breaking into a sad smile.
Chuck knew the entire time that he wasn’t at risk, but he could have been if he told Blair he was alright, or where he was, or what was going on. His calls or texts could have easily been traced and he would have been exposed, never being able to prove this company guilty of murdering members of Bass Industries, as well as Chuck, himself. Finally, business would never get in the way of Chuck and Blair ever again, even though it has many times before in the past. And it’s not like Chuck wanted to, there were times when he had no choice. No choice because their personal goals were going to help them reach their journey to the alter, the one that Chuck feels like he’s been waiting forever to do. But he wanted everything perfect for when they finally did get married, and right now, everything was perfect. When Blair buried her head into his shirt, he felt it begin to get soaked with tears, only encouraging to hug her tighter to him, wanting her to know that he was never going to leave her ever again. “I’m not letting myself out of your sight.” he said, smiling lightly. Chuck smiled against her lips when she mumbled Merry Christmas, but flinched as she hit his arm, knowing he deserved that. “I wanted to Blair, trust me, I did, but I couldn’t. They could have easily tracked my number and found out that I never got on that plane and they would have figured out my plan, which by the way, was successful and they’re all in jail for life and their company got shut down.” Chuck said and shrugged nonchalantly. “You can give me all the hell you want, you have the rest of our lives to give me hell.” he said and smiled, leaning in to kiss her again. When Blair sat up, Chuck sat up as well, giving her hand a squeeze. “Of course I am, I could never leave you.” he said and nodded. “Now, let’s go downstairs, Dorota’s already started on breakfast and the gifts are all under the tree.” Chuck said and smiled, more than happy to be spending his first Christmas he ever celebrated with her.